Just send it already!

I laboured over this cover letter for weeks. Finally this morning it felt finished.

As I burnt the remaining demos off of my Mac I thought to myself, this is the first step. I'm taking the first step towards a career I've been training for over these last 3 and a half years.

Many of my friends here have already worked as journalists, whether it was a paid position or an un-paid internship. They pushed themselves through these packed semesters and they have the gray hairs and caffeine addictions to prove it.

I on the other hand see myself building momentum. I'm building it in a healthy, sustainable way. At least that's what I'm telling myself.

I sent my two applications to work for CBC Radio One in Northern B.C this summer. One was sent to the head office and the other to the station that I want to work in.

Hunched over the post office counter, I carefully printed out the address of both locations in the most permanent of Sharpies (we can't have it rubbing off, now can we). As I sealed both cushioned envelopes containing my resume, cover letter and both my radio and television demos my heart dropped. Did I spell the Executive Producer's name right? Good God, did I forget an 'e'? How could I be so stupid?

In a panicked flurry I speed walked home.

My worry was for nothing because I spelt it right. I was fine, but I'm still nervous.

I really want to get industry work before I head off in late September to back pack through Europe and India.

If it's meant to be it'll be. If I tell myself that enough times maybe my mind will sit at ease for a moment or two.